Me, Myself N I

Things R nt tUrNiNg e WaY I wAn iT 2 B...

2005-05-04T10:33:00.000-03:00

im juz so bothered by e stuffs happening ard me... no 1 hear me sae mi grouses... no 1 dere for me n no 1 dere to help me.. (but who can i seek help & who can help; i doubt so) I juz wanted a listening ear... deep in mi heart so sian.. n feel hurt.. things juz turn out like dat... y cant it b peaceful... which path shld i choose? enuff blogging.. bcoz i feel so moodless..

BoRiNG dAe....

2005-04-18T10:31:00.000-03:00

Im Super sIan.. Veri sian... mi attachment is gettin damn boring as each dae goes by... im like an office gal n basicalli doin repetitive jobs.. i hate it.... put it nicely to ppl its relaxing job bcoz its always e same, but to me it's plain boring n i feel dat it's more of a 'sai gang'... it's those kind of jobs they usually leave it till a long time nv do 1.. haiz.. can u imagine? However, Im glad dat at least tis comp dun haf much tension goin on or else i tink e times would b more diff to pass by... recently im realli so tired out... nt physically.. more of emotionally... realli nid alot of time by myself to tink abt it.... guess i haf to b emotionally stronger to conquer all tis....

Im LoViN

2005-04-15T13:07:00.000-03:00

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2005-04-09T12:33:00.000-03:00

Hee... here to blog again!! :p was away for quite some time but now back again.. recently realli too bz to even go internet... more to sae blogging... hmm.. lots of stuffs goin on recently... compete in dance competition... n oso had a terrible experience over dere.. bet u ppl noe bout it.... n oso attachment.. haizz... it's boring... i haf to do paperwk everydae.... nt much stuff for me to do... im realli nt those kind of gal dat wil sit quietly n do something.. i nid to move ard abit instead.. however was not given e chance... ;( make alot of mistakes during wk... sianz.. but gd thing is e bosses seemed quite gd... 2nd boss even send me to wk everydae.. ;p guess i shld b happi bout tis... wonder how mi frens r doin in their attachments... hope they r fine... ;p shall juz stop here... will blog more wen i haf more time.... c ya ard... *hugz*

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2005-03-09T11:34:00.000-03:00

Hmm... skipped mi CMA rev lect todae.. haha.. bcoz im juz too tired.. so headed home to slp... Tink Im a real saddist tis few daes... but den no choice.. haiz.. bcoz it's juz dat recently a lot of things happened lor.. Hmm.. I realli haf to be more disciplined man... feel dat im a slacker... :p For mi dance, not much comments, juz wan to improve myself further.... hope dat mi efforts pay off... But sometimes i feel dat im an attention seeker.. am i?? but e thing is i juz wan mi presence to b known n i meant well, not for any motive.. Sometimes i juz wish dat ppl would listen to more of mi comments n at least understand e efforts dat i put in.... Juz wanna ensure wad i do is not in vain... Feel dat ppl tend to haf a wrong impression of me.. perhaps dey dun realli understand me ba... hope everything can b wad i hope it to b.. ;p

---------->Bz~Bz~Bz~<----------

2005-03-07T12:47:00.000-03:00

C mi title? tis words enuff liao.. Im juz s0o0o0o bz! Dats all i can sae.. n i oso recently spent alot of $.. not onli on taxi but oso todae went to buy stuffs for mi upcoming dance comp n performance.. no choice ma.. wanna make myself more pretty.. dats e onli chance ma.. bcoz ppl wun sae u exagerating.. imagine u make up til so fanciful wen u go sch, ppl will start saying you crazy, look like wayang.. wahaha... :p Haiz... nt realli into studyin... guess after tis week i realli haf to get into mi studyin mood liao.. n realised 1 thing.. recently feel dat i haf bad temper.. dunno y.. not onli get emotionally affected easily, but i also get impatient and moody easily.. always vent mi frustration ard... sorri to those ppl whom i showed mi frustrations.. hmm... juz take it dat im whiney ya? Things haf started to turn out better for me.. mayb thinkin more positively does help... Ganbatte all e way~~

Wad a dae..

2005-03-04T10:12:00.000-03:00

Haha.. todae is a kinda heng dae for me.. go everywhere do things oso quite shun.. lolz.. gd leh... but it's not always like dat lor.... Certain things i realli hate to mention but i guess i stil gotta mention.. I feel dat im taken for granted by some ppl @ times.. I shall not mention names over here... I juz feel dat im dere tryin to offer help.. but all i get back is a piece of shit! It's like Im realli tryin mi veri best to help n that person juz dun understand. Instead, blame me for everything, tink dat mi recomendations is all shit.. Wads tis?? can't mi efforts b at least be recognized? Its realli hurting.... I shall put it tis way.. How do u feel when some1 stil gif u attitude, tok to u loudly wen u haf already did ur best? It's jzu tormenting.. dats all...

Am I dat Lousy?

2005-03-01T22:52:00.000-03:00

Hai.. yesterdae tried blogging, however half way thru, com went into hibernating n I'm so tired so i juz dun care... But Im super sian yesterdae.. it's like things aint rite for me @ all.... I dunno y.. i hope that things would turn out for me soon.. n i also hope dat i wun b affected by things ard me... The thing goes like this.. a few ppl realli made remarks abt me dat made me feel sad and pissed... Tis is juz wad i can sae... I wonder of they noe dat their remarks are hurting... but nvm... bcoz i noe dat in life i haf to handle all tis... things cant b perfect in life.... Bugged down by mi commitments.. studies n dance.. both enuff to kill me... Recently always mental blocked bcoz too bothered by alot of stuffs ard me.... When im dancing, I think of proj. When i tink of proj, i wanna haf a break... Bcoz of all tis also lacking alot of sleep.. How i wish i can haf a gd rest... Sometimes bcoz too much things stuffed in mi head, i feel dat wad i learnt dun get registered to mi head... Sometimes realli feel so disappointed.. every1 haf their expectations.. I oso wanna achieve something.. but guess I'm not up to it... As for studies, heard dat quite a few of mi frens started revision already!! omg.. dats fast n I'm stil stuck in mi proj... mayb its bcoz of mi time mgt.. ppl can juggle btw their revision time n proj time.. but wen i do proj, i tink i dun haf time to study bcoz all e time used up... Sometimes feel dat i realli need more den 24 hrs/dae.. haiz... As for dance.. i tink i deproved... how bad can it b? ppl wan to improve but not deprove.... i hope i can catch up fast...

~Tired & Sad Dae~

2005-02-28T11:35:00.000-03:00

'Happening' Dae

2005-02-27T12:21:00.000-03:00

On mi way to church, there's tis auntie as well... tok so loudly like nobody's biz... haha... everybody look @ her... dunno y yesterdae n todae alot of mrt incidents.. but den usual daes oso dun haf.. haha.. todae feel abit sian... haiz... cant get to spend enuff time wif him... army.. army, n army!! haiz... + mi proj.. so onli haf little time wif each other... hope tis time will pass soon.. 1 of e sermon statememnt todae strike me... a guy dunno who.. he quoted:' I am e problem, urs truely" The sermon's title is The Root To Human Problems. It actually describes bout Adam n Eve, I believe alot of ppl noe abt it.. So tis sentence actualli means that whenever something happens, dun blame others... reflect first.. bcoz definitely even if it's not ur fault, a portion of prob wil stil lie on urself.. which i feel dat it's true after some reflection... To me, ever since I've bcome a Christian, i've felt that it is more den a religion to me... i can form a personal relationship wif HIM as well... n i feel dat it helps me to b more matured in mi thinking n it serves as a guide for me to be morally good as well... Todae also went Gina's hse do proj after mi church.. took the wrong bus!! arhh... bus no. was correct, however took e wrong direction... N u noe wad? It heads to Woodlands checkpoint!! Omg.. wasting mi time.... lolz... n by e time wen i alight n take another bus to her hse it's already after an hour liao... wa piang... hahaa.. We all do proj do til so farnie man... alot of opinions... shoot her shoot dere... lolz... but den gd ma... we haf alot of ideas... idea genration helps to improve our project... :p While sitting in e car on mi way home, i saw tis lady.. she's actualli reading a story book while sitting on a motorbike!! unbelievable... pro sia!! hahaa.... how e hell can she read in a motorbike, n some more it's already late @ nite... haha... lightings oso not clear... Hmm.. she dun realli noe how to take care of her eyesight man.... gotta stop here.. stil haf tons of stuffs to do...

"Pleasant Trip" in the MRT

2005-02-26T08:40:00.000-03:00

Haha.. wad a dae todae man!! lolz.. met all e weirdos... I board the mrt @ Sembawang, mrt was not too crowded.. managed 2 get a seat for myself.... However, the gal sitting beside me is soOoO damn irritating!! urrghhh... It's like she's listening to her songs with her earpiece.. I tink bcoz she on her volume quite loud den she can't hear e fren sitting beside her tokin... den wen her fren tok to her she said: " wad u saying ar?? I can't hear u!!"(in chi). It's s0o0o0o loud!! all e ppl in e MRT was lookin @ them! Haha... they dun feel ma lu, i feel ma lu for them... s0o0o unlady like! The worse thing is that they keep on doin dat!! I realli cant tahan, some more they sitting beside me... Wad e hell... Finally, they get down @ Bishan stop, phew!!! -.-' hahaha.... waiting for dat moment... However, another case comes again... Tis time is e father n his son. When both of dat gals got up from their seats, the father n son den sat. His son is s0o0o0o hyperactive!! haha.... It's like he can't stop moving even 1 sec... sit n stand, stand n sit... Even though kids r meant to b cute, but wen they gets too hyper, it's not cute @ all!! It's juz so irritating!! arrrghhh.. How I wish i can get down soon man!! Todae was a kinda sian dae... some more wif all those stuffs goin on e moment i stepped out of mi hse... however, 1 thing happened dat brightened up mi dae.. On mi way home, since I'm not in a veri gd mood, mi face is kinda "black"... But 2 'angmo' ladies stil smile to me for no reason despite mi 'bittergourd' lookin face... {mayb it serves as a reminder for me not to let things ard me affect me dat easily} Therefore, i felt so much better.. ;p thx man... But den of coz it's not e incidents dat happened in e earlier part of e dae dat made me sian la... it's partially bcozz recently got lotsa stuffs to do n i dun haf enuff slp!! getting dark rings ard mi eyes... no more pretty le.... :( When I'm back home, mi auntie n mi cousins r already @ mi hse... Mi aunt saw me already said I've grown thinner... :p hahaa.. it's dat gd or bad?? But den I think otherwise.. Instead i tink i grown fatter.. haha.. dunno la... dun realli care dat much.. as long as not too out of shape can liao... tis is considered the longest blog i had so far... dunno y todae so "luo so".. haha

Pls tell me wad shld i do..

2005-02-22T12:31:00.000-03:00

haiz.... so bogged down wif e recent stuffs in mi life... frm sch wk to other personal stuffs... n I'm always having weird dreams.. perhaps i realli tink too much... Is tis gd or bad? Guess it's bad... Enuff bout all tis.. shall sae bout other stuffs... mi dad is juz so farnie.. he simply dislikes e baby's laughing msg alert tone in mi hp... wenever it starts ringing, he wil keep on sae me.. hee.. c'mon dad... it's juz a baby's laughter.. not dat bad ba? :p tmr is mi test.. haiz.. better stop blogging.. i shall head for studying now~

DePrEsSeD+LoNeLy+HeLpLeSs

2005-02-21T12:27:00.000-03:00

Everything was fine wif me till e dawn comes... suddenly i juz feel so moodless... dun feel like doin anything at all.... guess i haf mood swing this few daes.. oso feel veri depressed... he wasn't here for me.. but i understand he can't.. it's ok dearie.. ;p sometimes realli hope dat u can spend more time wif me... I realli dunno wad makes me feel so down.. i juz feel dat sometimes in life, certain things u cant wan it e way u wan it to b... dats e most saddening part... juz wish dat things wil turn out better & time will heal all wounds... I wil uphold all my faith unto HIM; for He's e onli 1 who create wonders in my life... thx... :p

.:Hard times ahead of me:.

2005-02-18T12:39:00.000-03:00

Wad shld i do man? haiz.. past few weeks had been sian... so tired... not enuff sleep... bcomeing a panda soon... Not onli dat, bugged down wif a lot of sch wk n proj... past few daes oso got into a few situations dat make me veri pai seh... a few daes back after sch, during mi journey back hm, i fell asleep in e bus.. den even til interchange not yet awake... haha!! it's onli wen the man wake me up den i got up e bus... guess im juz too tired... These few daes feel dat mi brain like no more energy left.. think i need lotsa rest.. realli wanna find time to do mi own stuffs but it's juz so diff... time mgt.. time mgt.. it's all abt mgt.. n I'm learning mgt now as well... some more for a few semesters already!! How come mi mgt is stil so bad??? Especially time mgt!! Even though it's not realli within mi study scope, it's stil considered as a form of mgt rite? :p I realli hope dat i can buck up in alot of areas. Feel dat i'm always lacking behind... However, I'm juz not motivated to do it... Thins doesnt realli go smoothly for me now... however, i believe dat everything will turn out fine veri soon!!! *pats mi own back*

.::::HappI VaL dAe::::.

2005-02-14T11:53:00.000-03:00

heyz every1!! firstly, of coz wishing every1 a veri happy new yr & hope dat new yr celebrations had been fun for all of u!! well.. can sae dat im havin lots of fun during new yr.. :p Gathering wif family n frens is a definite muz 4 me... relationships & ties r veri impt to me!! As for todae, im so surprised to receive 2 val dae gifts frm mi frens!! (not guys, but gals) hehe.. but im so happi!! Its so sweet n thoughtful of them..... Love it... thx!! Hmm.. however, tis yr's val dae for me is kinda lonely... bcoz he nv accompany me... :( but bcoz im left wf no choice.. but i understand... :p ~Ming Tian Hui Gen Hao~

My thoughts of ecommerce

2005-02-13T12:42:00.000-03:00

well.. hmmm... thru ecommerce basically we realli will learn more abt creating websites.. which can be veri useful in the future... well... it can be realli quite fun as u will begin to appreciate ecommerce as well as to understand its usage & its role in the society now. Basically, of coz everything have its own disadvantages and advantages... however i feel dat as for ecommerce, it provides more advantages compared to disadvantages. Not only that, i also understand the importance of attracting ppl to either read ur blog or as well as to read ur corporate website. From a bz point of view, u can generate more biz opportunities, which is more beneficial to them. Generally, i would sae dat having some knowledge abt ecommerce is powerful, as it can help us in a alot of areas.. With them, it really saves time and effort for us.. :p

BaI nIaN @ hAn's hSe..

2005-02-11T14:31:00.000-03:00

early in e morning... gotta do proj.... *sianz* however, rite after this, I go han's hse bai nian!! When we reached, his mum was veri welcoming and offered to help us prepare e steamboat... so kind of her... hmm.... after our steamboat dinner, we went e playground downstairs play fire sparkles... veri long nv play liao!! so fun... n we were playing catching... indeed we haf 'childhood' ya.. :p after that, we went up again den played BlackJack.. its like mi beginning capital is onli 10 cents... n I won onli 30 cents after everything... is dat gd or bad? haha... anywae todae's a gr8t dae as it's a gd opportuninty for a chill out session to remove our stress frm all our past common tests n as well as spending more time wif mi classmates... realli njoyed it man.... 2B27 rockz!! :p

~HaPPy NeW yR~

2005-02-10T13:56:00.000-03:00

yipee!!! firstly.. wish all of u a veri happy & prosperous new yr... was unable to blog for e past week as mi com was down... juz got it fixed todae!! finall.. so happi... past week had been a hectic week foe me filled wif common tests n projects.. however tis week was better as i get to enjoy new yr.. enjoy e new yr snacks as well as takin a breather after dat hectic week.. reunion dinner was not bad... den im e chief for dat nite.. *ahem* haha.. realli la... even though it doesnt taste special at least it's edible... dun believe u all can try next time.. :p next week is gonna b a tough 1 again... 3 tests coming up + other proj deadlines... but it's gd as well... ur life shld b filled wif events n stuffs to do to make it more meaningful and challenging rite? remembered last fri make myself so 'malu'.. press e bus stop bell wanting to alight... however realised its e wrong stop.. n i onli realised when e bus stopped for quite q few secs.. haha...mayb it's bcoz i'm kinda stoned n tired after e last paper.... den its like e uncle stil waited den i showed signal to him and gave him e apologetic look.. n everybody is oso like givin me dat look... 'hey gal, u muz b either dreaming or u juz wan to waste our time!' u noe wad---> dat bus stop dat i wanted to get down is actualli quite far away frm e 1 dat i haf mistaken abt... how 'gong' n 'blur' can I b? haha... For this week, actualli i'm oso kinda pissed off wif certain stuffs n it made me cry.. well.. since its chi new yr, I shall not sae... so as not to spoil mi mood & other ppl's mood... New yr b happy.. so i shall not mention so it will be better... hope dat everything will juz turn out fine... *Wish dat I can receive GoD's blessing* :p

mY 2nd p0sT!!

2005-01-27T08:36:00.000-03:00

Hee.. my 2nd entry... but seriously nothing much to write bout bcoz im @ hm... realli seems like a c0uch potato for ts past few daes... but no choice.. sad thing is nv realli study alot... starting to feel *guilty*.. but nvm... muz try my veri best to kampate for e next few daes.. seriously now haf alot of stuffs to accomplish on mi list... hope dat i wil b able to accompish them.. or else veri 'dui bu qi wo zhi ji'.. jia you *pat mi own back*

My veri 1st post!!

2005-01-25T08:44:00.000-03:00

Hee... hmmm.. its my veri 1st post!! initially nt veri into blogging bcoz feel weird posting mi own stuffs on e net.. however after some thought, felt that actualli it can b a place whereby i can share stuffs which i wanna let mi frens to noe.. derefore decided to blog... Anywae.. do hope to c ya guys ard mi blog often... as for todae... nothing much happened... onli went Thomson Plaza do moi proj.. proj n proj!! sianzz... hope these tough periods would b gone soon.... :p